Not Ready Yet

Today, I am officially 36 weeks and 3 days pregnant. Amazingly enough, I don’t feel huge today…….just a little uncomfortable. I have only gained 33 pounds and people tell me that I am small for being so far along. Sometimes I believe them and sometimes I feel like they are being polite. Sometimes I feel really good about the weight that I have gained and sometimes, like when I try to get off the couch, I feel like I can’t possibly gain another ounce without busting at the seams.

While lying on the couch last night (my new favorite past time), I did my favorite thing…..watched my belly move. Babybird was demonstrating his love of Mexican food by doing lots of gymnastics. While watching him roll and tumble and kick, it really hit me that I don’t have that much time left.

I never thought that I would say this, but I think that I am going to miss being pregnant.

I know that I will be thrilled when he is here and I cannot wait to hold him in my arms, but I am going to miss having him be part of me. I am going to miss having him with me all the time. I am going to miss rubbing my belly. I am going to miss when Haley runs up to try to feel Babybird kick her hand. As many days as I have wanted him out of me……now I want to keep him safe inside.

Did any of you other mothers feel this way?